Feeling down? Need someone to talk to confidentially? Reach out to Heather Mason. Appointments not necessary but appreciated. In person at Robin Deli/Sessions with Heather or over network. Video, text, voice, action accepted.
( it is helping in a strange way― it's allowing her to see how douglas was manipulated by claudia and the order into tracking heather down, and how he took responsibility when he realized the truth. she had come to care for him an extent, considering she hadn't shown sophie this yet, but he had talked to heather about his own son and how his loss hurt him too. he had been shot up trying to rob a bank for their family's sake...
that really sat with heather, as much as this was sitting with her. she remained silent for now as the scene before them remained paused, the only thing moving was the rain onto the car. )
Nah not a God, just a perfect vessel for it. There's one last scene I want to show you...but this is just to show you the anger I have towards Claudia. Maybe if I watch it too....I can finally get over this pain.
( before them was a set of stairs that unfurled, and as the door opened before them, the scene unfolded to the inside of what appeared to be a church. there's a name claudia calls out; vincent, but in heather's memory it is blurred out completely. there's nothing when claudia opened her mouth; she was still protecting vincent even in her memories. )
I was an angry girl a long time ago....when I was Alessa but I never wanted that. What Claudia talked about...I just wanted people to understand the pain I went through back then. I wanted Claudia to understand that.
(Whatever helps. She doesn't — she thought that maybe it could, but doubted she could. Perhaps Heather can tell she's not great at the comforting, emotional side of things, but the idea here was to let her come to her own conclusions while reliving and revisiting the facts of her life in a way that Sophie can provide.
It seems to be working.)
Heather, I need to tell you, the more you hide from me, the more you're driving me towards it, and if you deal with a telepath who wishes you harm in the future, you're spoon-feeding them your weaknesses. I'm not going to do anything about it or with it, but you're making my rehab into a better person really, really hard.
(Which, well, granted Heather had no idea she is in one, but just don't.
This is a collaboration, and it's actually not helping Sophie, because her brain goes straight into thinking that if this woman is here, then the person she is addressing is, too, if Heather feels the need to block her. Meaning, it's someone she cares about, but why block it if he had done nothing wrong? See, this was a bad idea, she would have thought nothing of it should Heather not push her out.
Well, she is warned, if not Sophie but someone else, she should have that knowledge.)
... I don't think people can understand, my dearest, especially someone so... Attached to her delusion.
What a threat, here I thought you were one of the good mutants. It's fine, I don't really see how any of this can come back to get me here in Etraya after all.
( she could only hope her words didn't come back to bite her at some point. standing before the scene, of claudia and her now frozen before them as she viewed the memory, heather sighed and shook her head a bit, turning towards sophie. )
You're right, that's why I gave up trying to reason with her at all at this point. If I kill her, get my revenge for what she did to my father I...well it's pointless. If I sit and talk with her about the issue well....it's also pointless. She won't listen, even now that she's in Etraya she thinks coming here is her reward for having done what she did....at least it sounded like she believed that.
Anyways there's not much else to see, sorry. That's all I wanted to show you and I think.....I think I'm feeling better about the whole thing.
I am, that's why I am telling you that what you are doing is basically walking me to a door that says 'do not enter', telling me there's stuff in there I might want to see, and then turning around and shooing me. Just, you know, be careful, not with me but just in general.
(Look. Telepaths come in all shapes and forms. Some will be tempted, like she is, and do nothing about it. Some would break down the door, like she would have half a year ago. Some would shrug and go 'okay'. She just wants Heather to be safe, is all.
But not the point. She's listening, and once Heather finishes, Sophie nods and taps her temple to indicate she's moving them out.
Back to the office she is, and she sighs a little. A lot to unpack here, huh?)
Look. Not that you gotta listen to me or anything, the purpose of this was more of a trauma-releasing exercise and all, but I can tell you from experience that that kind of shit is not going to really solve anything. It only invites more. Trying to change someone who doesn't want to change is also a) impossible, or b) never ends well when it is. But you want to hurt her? Don't give her a time of day. You seem to matter way too much to her, so what if she feels she means nothing to you? Not worth the dirt on the sole of your shoe.
You know, you should just like someone I know, but you're right. I'll be more careful next time. I appreciate the warning.
( though she didn't give her much of a warning for when she decided to take them back to the room. even though it was more of a mental shift than an actual physical and bodily shift, she was left shuddering as she returned to her body and felt just how cold it was. it was terrifying really, to be so far removed and yet so close.
but as soon as the other began to speak, heather opened her eyes and leaned forward, her words landing quite heavy on her. )
No you're right....woah...actually I think that did end up helping me. I don't want to hurt her anymore, I did for a long time, and even when she came here I had some friends telling me I should hurt her but I think you're right. It's not worth it given how little she means to me now. It's a shame....there was a point in time where I deeply cared about her but...
Ah does it usually feel this cold when coming back from memory world?
Oh, no, the temperature didn't change. You just weren't paying attention.
(But she's running a vital brain check real quick, just, you know. Safety and all, just to be sure.)
Well, guess my job here is done. If you do want to lightly fuck with her, though, I'd be super down to pranking her or some stupid shit like that. You're naive as hell, but I think you'd not let me overdo it.
( she began to rise up from her chair, waving an arm towards sophie as she simply shook her head and began to stretch a little bit. as her body warmed up to the room temperature around them, she looked towards the other with a less tense expression than before. )
I’d be down for that actually, and I’m not naive. Trust me, if you knew the intense lessons my dad gave me about ‘stranger danger’, you’d believe me. Besides as long as we don’t blow her up or kill her, any prank is fair game.
Oh, yeah. We can definitely fuck with her a little bit. You know, just because. Wanna play, Heather? Switching memories, illusions, nightmares, mental confusion, delusions, memory issues, list goes on and on, what we thinking?
(Not today, because that's not her mood, but it would actually make her soul sing a little bit to fuck with someone for a while. Harmless stuff. Whatever Heather come up with should be acceptable on a moral standpoint, so.)
I'm thinking more like just scaring her a bit, I'm not trying to turn her catatonic after all.
( sophie saw just how demented and unstable claudia was in her memories didn't she? even if she did hate her, there was just a small part of heather that still cared for the woman.
with a soft sigh, she began to walk towards the other, looking at her gently. )
We'll hash out the details later. Anyways I uh....thank you for helping me. I know it's hard trying to be good and behave, but you actually did help me out quite a bit with all of my issues and feelings I've had about this entire situation. If there's...
well as long as it doesn't involve murder or torturing someone, if there's anything I can do for you in return, just let me know. Okay?
I didn't say 'turn her catatonic', there are levels to each one of these things.
(Oh, gross, feelings towards Sophie. She looks at the girl for a second, as if she isn't buying much, until she drops the posture and nods. Fine. She can accept this.)
Yeah, no worries, I... Hey, I don't kill or torture, okay, just letting that be clear. I'm more girlboss, gatekeep, gaslight sort of bullshit, but yeah. I mean, just take care of yourself is all I ask.
( was that even english? it's too modern of a phrase for her to truly wrap her mind around, but instead heather simply shrugged her shoulders before laughing. )
Okay, okay I get it. I promise I won't get into anything too crazy like crashing cars, jumping off buildings, or wrecking the place up because I'm angry. I promise....I'll be alright.
Seriously though, thanks again. It means a lot to me.
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that really sat with heather, as much as this was sitting with her. she remained silent for now as the scene before them remained paused, the only thing moving was the rain onto the car. )
Nah not a God, just a perfect vessel for it. There's one last scene I want to show you...but this is just to show you the anger I have towards Claudia. Maybe if I watch it too....I can finally get over this pain.
( before them was a set of stairs that unfurled, and as the door opened before them, the scene unfolded to the inside of what appeared to be a church. there's a name claudia calls out; vincent, but in heather's memory it is blurred out completely. there's nothing when claudia opened her mouth; she was still protecting vincent even in her memories. )
I was an angry girl a long time ago....when I was Alessa but I never wanted that. What Claudia talked about...I just wanted people to understand the pain I went through back then. I wanted Claudia to understand that.
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It seems to be working.)
Heather, I need to tell you, the more you hide from me, the more you're driving me towards it, and if you deal with a telepath who wishes you harm in the future, you're spoon-feeding them your weaknesses. I'm not going to do anything about it or with it, but you're making my rehab into a better person really, really hard.
(Which, well, granted Heather had no idea she is in one, but just don't.
This is a collaboration, and it's actually not helping Sophie, because her brain goes straight into thinking that if this woman is here, then the person she is addressing is, too, if Heather feels the need to block her. Meaning, it's someone she cares about, but why block it if he had done nothing wrong? See, this was a bad idea, she would have thought nothing of it should Heather not push her out.
Well, she is warned, if not Sophie but someone else, she should have that knowledge.)
... I don't think people can understand, my dearest, especially someone so... Attached to her delusion.
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( she could only hope her words didn't come back to bite her at some point. standing before the scene, of claudia and her now frozen before them as she viewed the memory, heather sighed and shook her head a bit, turning towards sophie. )
You're right, that's why I gave up trying to reason with her at all at this point. If I kill her, get my revenge for what she did to my father I...well it's pointless. If I sit and talk with her about the issue well....it's also pointless. She won't listen, even now that she's in Etraya she thinks coming here is her reward for having done what she did....at least it sounded like she believed that.
Anyways there's not much else to see, sorry. That's all I wanted to show you and I think.....I think I'm feeling better about the whole thing.
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(Look. Telepaths come in all shapes and forms. Some will be tempted, like she is, and do nothing about it. Some would break down the door, like she would have half a year ago. Some would shrug and go 'okay'. She just wants Heather to be safe, is all.
But not the point. She's listening, and once Heather finishes, Sophie nods and taps her temple to indicate she's moving them out.
Back to the office she is, and she sighs a little. A lot to unpack here, huh?)
Look. Not that you gotta listen to me or anything, the purpose of this was more of a trauma-releasing exercise and all, but I can tell you from experience that that kind of shit is not going to really solve anything. It only invites more. Trying to change someone who doesn't want to change is also a) impossible, or b) never ends well when it is. But you want to hurt her? Don't give her a time of day. You seem to matter way too much to her, so what if she feels she means nothing to you? Not worth the dirt on the sole of your shoe.
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( though she didn't give her much of a warning for when she decided to take them back to the room. even though it was more of a mental shift than an actual physical and bodily shift, she was left shuddering as she returned to her body and felt just how cold it was. it was terrifying really, to be so far removed and yet so close.
but as soon as the other began to speak, heather opened her eyes and leaned forward, her words landing quite heavy on her. )
No you're right....woah...actually I think that did end up helping me. I don't want to hurt her anymore, I did for a long time, and even when she came here I had some friends telling me I should hurt her but I think you're right. It's not worth it given how little she means to me now. It's a shame....there was a point in time where I deeply cared about her but...
Ah does it usually feel this cold when coming back from memory world?
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(But she's running a vital brain check real quick, just, you know. Safety and all, just to be sure.)
Well, guess my job here is done. If you do want to lightly fuck with her, though, I'd be super down to pranking her or some stupid shit like that. You're naive as hell, but I think you'd not let me overdo it.
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( she began to rise up from her chair, waving an arm towards sophie as she simply shook her head and began to stretch a little bit. as her body warmed up to the room temperature around them, she looked towards the other with a less tense expression than before. )
I’d be down for that actually, and I’m not naive. Trust me, if you knew the intense lessons my dad gave me about ‘stranger danger’, you’d believe me. Besides as long as we don’t blow her up or kill her, any prank is fair game.
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(Not today, because that's not her mood, but it would actually make her soul sing a little bit to fuck with someone for a while. Harmless stuff. Whatever Heather come up with should be acceptable on a moral standpoint, so.)
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( sophie saw just how demented and unstable claudia was in her memories didn't she? even if she did hate her, there was just a small part of heather that still cared for the woman.
with a soft sigh, she began to walk towards the other, looking at her gently. )
We'll hash out the details later. Anyways I uh....thank you for helping me. I know it's hard trying to be good and behave, but you actually did help me out quite a bit with all of my issues and feelings I've had about this entire situation. If there's...
well as long as it doesn't involve murder or torturing someone, if there's anything I can do for you in return, just let me know. Okay?
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(Oh, gross, feelings towards Sophie. She looks at the girl for a second, as if she isn't buying much, until she drops the posture and nods. Fine. She can accept this.)
Yeah, no worries, I... Hey, I don't kill or torture, okay, just letting that be clear. I'm more girlboss, gatekeep, gaslight sort of bullshit, but yeah. I mean, just take care of yourself is all I ask.
going to start wrapping this up here ♥
( was that even english? it's too modern of a phrase for her to truly wrap her mind around, but instead heather simply shrugged her shoulders before laughing. )
Okay, okay I get it. I promise I won't get into anything too crazy like crashing cars, jumping off buildings, or wrecking the place up because I'm angry. I promise....I'll be alright.
Seriously though, thanks again. It means a lot to me.
wrap!
(Not really, but okay.)
Good. And if you need me, just let me know. I can hear a fucking pin drop here. Anyway, you're welcome, and I'll be seeing you, okay?
(If all is well, Sophie will be on her way! Look at that, 10 points for rehab.)