It's not something I want to really think about....or at least I don't think anyone wants to think about. The only thing I can say with confidence is...

( and she's not trying to be dramatic or edgy by any means really. it's just when you've seen the face of death contorted and disfigured before you in the form of a monster who represented past trauma―

well it was hard to truly be afraid of anything anymore. really all of her negative emotions came from the loss of her father. in a way, maybe she was more scared of others dying. )

I'm not scared of dying as I am of losing people I care about. So no more crazy fights for you Gorgug, please?

( her words are more gentle, more teasing than the weight of such heavy words. yet she's being serious― even if it was something he was used to... )